iamneurotic:

At parties, if I don’t have a designated chore, I can’t cope. I have to be the photographer, or cooking something or cleaning up empty glasses and napkins and ashtrays. I feel like I have to be useful in order to be there because nobody actually likes me.

I can relate to this, except that instead of tidy, I drink or have to have a glass/can/bottle in my hand regardless of if it is empty or not. More often than not I drink too much.